BXBX NOVEL Chapter 329 - Self-Doubts
"What’s going on?" He Susu asked Zhu Chen as they saw Jie being pushed back to the OR.
"I don’t know Su." Zhu Chen could only say this in reply since he didn’t want to scare her any more than she was. He could guess the reason for the second surgery but there was no point in scaring everyone.
Pacing back and forth in the hallway, Zhu Chen was feeling dizzy.
When Lin Shen came out of the OR, he looked tired. He wasn’t just physically but also mentally exhausted. Looking at the eager eyes of the people before him, Lin Shen sighed heavily.
"There was a bit of blood clotting in his brain. We have removed it. He’s fine now. Still unconscious but fine." Lin Shen couldn’t tell how he managed to say this but afterward, he left them and walked straight to Xu Mey’s room.
Looking at her frail figure, Lin Shen couldn’t hold himself and broke down in tears. "Meymey, I’m trying my best. But for the first time in my life, I feel like my best is not enough. I don’t know how I’ll face you if anything happened to Jie. I’m scared. I’m really very scared." He placed his head on the side of her hand and kept sobbing silently.
Feeling a tap at his shoulder, Lin Shen tilted his head to see the rest of his friends standing beside him. None of them said anything, they just stood by her side silently.
The silence was only broken when Wu Wang chuckled suddenly surprising everyone. "Sorry! I was imagining her reaction to finding out that she’s going to be a mother." Wu Wang said with a smile which turned into a bitter one soon enough.
"Do you think she’d be surprised?" This time Li Qiao asked. "You know... about her pregnancy."
"I say, she’d be shocked instead." He Jian answered and everyone nodded.
Silence again engulfed them for a while.
"Did you check up on Xu Liqing and Fu Lan?" Lin Shen questioned He Jian since those two were the only people they could think of.
"I checked. Xu Liqing is under strict observation of doctors while Fu Lan is still in a coma with no hope of waking up." He Jian explained the details he gathered through his people but to their dismay, nothing was adding up.
"Who else could it possibly be?" The question came from Li Qiao but none of them had an answer. It was hard to say who was behind all of this. They didn’t even know if it was someone whom Xu Mey offended or Jie.
Wu Wang went out to get some coffee for everyone and that’s when he heard someone sobbing lightly in a secluded corner. His curiosity got the best of him and he made a quick turn to look.
There he saw Yang Ziyi sitting on the white marble floor with her head buried in her knees. Her shoulders were shaking probably from all the sobbing that she had been up to.
Not knowing why, but Wu Wang made his way up to her side and perched down beside her on the floor. Feeling his presence, Yang Ziyi lifted her head enough to see his face before hiding her face back in her knees.
She thought he would console her, say some encouraging words but nothing came. He just sat there silently making his presence feel like it wasn’t necessary. But in her heart, she knew this was needed. Much needed. His words won’t soothe her but his presence was like a reassurance that he was there. She didn’t have to cry all by herself.
"Jie bro and my brother were close friends back in school." Wu Wang raised his brows as he heard her hoarse voice. "The reason why I became a doctor is... I didn’t want to feel helpless like I did when my brother died in my arms."
Sniffling, she laid her head on Wu Wang’s shoulder and went on, "Today, I’m feeling helpless all over again. What’s the use of all these years of hard work if I can’t even save my own brother’s friend? Aren’t I still as useless as I was back then? What if I lost him like I lost my brother?"
Wu Wang stroked her hair gently before saying, "You are not useless. You are a doctor who saves lives. And as a doctor, you should never call yourself useless. People trust you with their lives because they have faith in you. So, if not for your own self, just for their sake have some faith in your own abilities." His words warmed up her heart instantly as she felt herself calming down.
Yang Ziyi felt the tip of his thumb wiping her tears and looked up at him with her swollen and bloodshot eyes. He pinched her cheeks and added, "I take my words back. Who would have faith in this blockhead doctor who looks like a panda?"
All the warmth was instantly thrown under the bus. How dare he call her a panda? And why couldn’t he say something nice for a change? Did he have to tease her all the time?
"You! You’re a jerk!" Yang Ziyi spatted out in anger.
Wu Wang chuckled to himself at her reaction and pulled her back in his arms. "I know, I’m a jerk. But for now, I’ll give you my shoulder to lean on. Don’t get too used to it though. This shoulder is very expensive." She rolled her eyes at him but didn’t come up with a remark. It wasn’t needed.