Endless Journey: Infinite Realms

Chapter 581 The Cause of Depression

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Sigh... my life really sucks.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Hm? What do you mean, master? You have everything that anyone could wish for! How could you be just sad?

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Sigh, my situation is something that you... cannot fathom.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: What? But you are one of the Returning Travelers, considered to be a powerhouse here in the Traveler’s World! With that kind of status, shouldn’t you be happy, master?

[ An extremely depressed man ]: ....

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: A-and besides master, you are extremely close to Transcendence already, which means that you are above most creatures in terms of life status. With that kind of power, you should be elated, right master?

[ An extremely depressed man ]: ....

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: ....

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Girl, let me ask you something. If there is a man, who was because of circumstances, was forced to lie to his parents, relatives, and friends, do you think that man will be happy?

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: O-of course that man will not be happy! He was lying to his close ones after all!

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Correct. Just the action of lying alone is enough to make that man feel guilty. Now, imagine what this man will think once he had made this lie. Surely he will feel fear too, as he will be afraid of what will happen once his lie was discovered, right?

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Ah um, yes, I think the same too master.

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Good. Now, that makes the ’lying man’ feel two negative emotions. Guilt and fear. Just feeling these two emotions alone are enough to make anyone feel down, and it worked especially well on this ’lying man’....

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: ...I pity that ’lying man’. Because he was forced to lie, he now has to live looking out for the consequences of what he did.

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Yes, and he had to do that for his entire life, as his lie was something that he had to keep until his death.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: God bless his soul... I hope he will find peace after all of that pain.

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Peace? Heh, I doubt this ’lying man’ will feel peace after all the lies that he did.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Um? Master, I think you are going a bit off-topic here. Aren’t we-

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Girl. If that man just made up one lie, then he could carry it on normally. But what if this ’lying man’ was forced to make more lies? Heh, the crushing guilt, despair, and fear that this man will feel will surely be beyond what is normal, am I right?

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Yes, you are right master, but-

[ An extremely depressed man ]: No matter how successful this ’lying man’ became, as long as he was burdened by the weight of his lies, there is no way that he will be happy! There is just no way!

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: M-master!

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Hahaha! So what if this ’lying man’ was a Returning Traveler? So what if this ’lying man’ was already close to Transcendence? There is no way that he could feel happy, with all the lies that he is carrying now! H-h-he....

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master, please stop already. I-I...

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Girl.... Do you know the current status of this ’lying man’? He... he’s just depressed. He was so depressed that each day of his life was an intense struggle for him. He finds it hard to live, but for the sake of his lies, he has no choice but to continuously punish himself by living. Sigh, isn’t that life the opposite of being happy?

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master! Plea-

[ An extremely depressed man ]: That ’lying man’ was no other than me, girl. There is just no one in this world... who is suffering as much as me.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master....

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Heh, with all the things that I have done, do I even deserve to live? Sigh... maybe it really is time for me to die...

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: D-die? Master, please don’t joke around! You have a complete life now! You... you cannot just die! That will be wasting your happiness!

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Girl, look at me in the eyes and tell me that I deserve to be happy. Because after all the lies that I uttered in my life, I feel undeserving of all this!

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master, no! I cannot do that! You are-

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Girl, I am tired of speaking about myself already, so don’t feed more fuel to my sadness. You will just... dampen my mood more.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: ...Ok master.

[ An extremely depressed man ]: ....

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: ....

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Sigh, when I look down at the Traveler’s World and observe what that Traveler Alex was doing, I could not help but empathize with him. I can clearly feel his pain, and he seem to be also like me. He was just lying to everyone, including himself.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master, you-

[ An extremely depressed man ]: What a poor guy. I hope that Traveler Alex does not meet... the same fate as me. My life, no matter how good it is, is not something that I recommend to him.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master, please stop this already. You cannot judge your life by your past! And you... you cannot sympathize wth Traveler Alex! He is just an upstart who is trying to fight you! Instead of liking him, you should squash him flat!

[ An extremely depressed man ]: Girl, do you think I even care about fighting now? Even the very act of living out this day... is already a struggle for me.

[ A jolly and wileful girl ]: Master...